an emotional day...

i don like things come to me too much in the same time....unfortunately today i got it...this was the first time i feel so tired..exhausted..depress...annoyed..upset..bla..bla...bla..i feel so sorry to people around me cause i kind of rude when they ask me rest..i am so sorry..i also found that...the best way to make myself release is just do extreme exercise...cant believe myself act did 100 push up...if i can do it every day..i know i m gona be awesome..but don want to depressed every day...

just now ...watch a movie call rule of engagement..i din finish that movie because i was feeling tired and felt a little bit angry....the story was about a troop of US army went to Yamen to rescue the US embassy officer because they had very serious demonstration..the local were very aggressive and the had riffle as well..when the army reach..they not really start fire them..and lots of the got injured because they din fire back...and when the captain of the troop came..he ask the soldiers to fire..and in the end 83 peoples died..include old, young, women and children..and he got trouble with court because the government have problem in diplomatic....

i really couldnt understand...what the hell are they thinking? i know this happened in reality as well..we always said killing women, young, children, old are inhuman..then why they come in the aggressive demonstration? why bring the child? when the soldiers got attacked by them..they are not included in inhuman..but when the soldiers fire them...that this will call inhuman?

do we ever think what are their feeling? i don think they feel good as well when they been ordered to kill...but ..what can they do? if the others don die..they will probably die..so..if you and me are in their position..what will we do?

when we keep on said..no war...no war...what act we need to do? war wont happened just because 1 side want war..there always involved in 2 side..so.think about it...

i am not an expert..i just want to share my feeling and point of view...